I wanted to leave this town so many times. This town and this land. I struggled a lot with leaving. I wanted to leave everything behind hoping to find a place to call home. And a better future. But where is home? Is is safe to search for it in places? In people? In clothes?
The photo from the header of this post inspired this article. It was taken in Bucharest in Piata Amzei in 1941 and the instant I saw it on the Secret Bucharest Facebook page, it felt like home.
It felt like my childhood – because I was raised in the countryside – it felt like my every weekend – because every Thursday, Friday and Saturday morning I go to a farmer’s market that looks exactly the same and it’s in a nearby area. It felt like HOME because it feels like people were simpler, nicer and warmer back then. That period of time seems familiar even though there was WWII going on.
Also, we leave one HOME and run into another. When we leave the house that we lived in, we go into another one… and maybe another one… and another one. Some may leave the country or their town or their continent in order to find a place where they feel like they belong.
It’s just that… if you find comfort and happiness in your skin, in your clothes and in your spirit, you are HOME. And you don’t need a society to define a HOME for you. Or another political, another economical or another fashion world to feel like HOME.
HOME is where you are with yourself. HOME is where your roots come from. HOME is where your spirit turns from stone cold to warm fire. HOME is a state of comfort in your own skin, in your best clothes or your worst ones.
You have to look within yourself before you search for it on the outside. But if you think you are done looking on the inside and you still need something from the outside then you didn’t look good enough. It’s all there.
HOME is where the wild things are. And best things are. And the worst things are. And where your best moments are. And your worst fears. HOME is in YOU.
It was freezing. It was humid, it was kind of dark. But nature feels like a home all the time. And nothing’s more authentic and comfortable than that. I’ll leave that thought for another article.